This morning I'm reminded that life is not supposed to be easy. Moments, hours, even days pass when it feels that way: effortless. The tension in my body subsides, and with it my need to fight. I can let the river flow.
But then I float around a bend and spot a patch of rough water ahead. My body stiffens like wood. With all my might, I struggle to retreat upstream.
The effort exhausts me. Before long I've shut down my senses and slipped down into the dark closets of my childhood, where no one and nothing can find me.
And so maybe writing here is a way to shine a light in the dark. Fill up this small space with the strength of my voice. Release it into the river. Try something I've never done before.
Chris, this is very exciting. Congratulations to your decision. It is a treat to be able to hear your voice.
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